Not so good:(

Figured I would share the details of what has happened over the past couple of days. Tuesday Joseph woke up at 5am with low grade fever. He continued to run a slight fever over the course of the day. After his morning nap he started with a slight cough. After lunch he had about 3 spells of coughing, 2 of which made him throw up a little. His usual signs of a cold. I figured I would wait it out till the next day, before taking him in. That night he awoke every 4 hours and I gave him medicine and some fluids. Wed. took him to the dr, his dr was not there so we saw only a nurse practioner. Upper respiratory infection is what he said, I felt to that it was all it was. He did good with the drive, he had 2 short naps, we got home around 1 he had a bottle then I layer him down for a nap. He didn't want to so he played in his room, with grandma, while I went to get the boys. We got back about 330. Fed Joe a snack and he got fussy I figured he was tired, he had a coughing spell so I walked around with him until he fell asleep. About 5 I laid him in his infant seat he seemed to like sleeping in it. He also had a fever of 101 @ 5. While he was sleeping I sat watching him just didn't feel comfortable leaving him. His heart rate on the pulse ox, was high, I was debating testing my go to girl Kelly, I even made a little video of him breathing. I was trying so hard not to panick and overreact like I feel I do alot were Joseph is concerned. I told myself just give the med some time to work. So I didn't send the video or call her, wish I would have:( 510 Joseph woke up coughing, he was sounding different. I put him up to my shoulder to pat his back to help him get some stuff out. As I was reaching for my phone to call someone, he went limb. I layed him on the floor in front of me, had a moment of panick then called 911. God blessed us with a rapid response team, great team of nurses and . They did everything they could for him. If his pilot and medics had not been close to the end of there shift, we would be in Lubbock, but I believe with my heart that God intervened on our part. Joseph barely made it safely to Amarillo. Everyone here is great.

Joseph is doing good. He is fighting sedation with all his might, but he needs it because he needs to be on the vent for a few days. Right now he is asleep, hopefully he stays that way, because I hate having to wrestle with him and so does his nurse.

I on the other hand am having a battle with myself on what I should have done and could have done to prevent this.